just a quick post before i have to get ready for work.
i miss parker so much already. she is in san francisco, her 16th state!
but on a positive note: i slept all the way through the night. i didnt have to pay a babysitter last night. i got to sleep later this morning because i only have to get myself ready. im enjoying a quiet, poop free morning. im going to the movies tonight, no babysitter or pappy needed!
im lonely tonight. hopefully tomorrow it will pass. sometimes it just gets old not having anyone to hang out with. my dad has a lady friend now and i miss him when he is at her house but i am so happy for him.
i want patrick to come visit so badly. im scheming to try and get him here.
i cant find a babysitter for saturday night. i have to work and my dad is going to be out of town. no one can do it because it is memorial day weekend. i dont know what to do.
ok, so we havent seen each other in years....havent talked on the phone.....havent met the important people in each others lives (jay, parker, etc)....
but know that when I think of growing up...becoming...getting through those hard middle school years....you are every much as part of those thoughts as I myself am.
you're my oldest friend.....and ive been so happy to reconnect. I know it must be so hard up there...well, i know it..probably dont understand. definitely dont understand motherhood, and cant imagine how all-consuming it must be.
you're doing a great job, though. I can tell. Happy mother's day a bit late.
life is messy....but i think we'll all be okay. love you today, girl. b.
i got the sweetest note today from my good friend kyong. i decided to share it with you.
Hey, I just wanted to thank you for being such a good friend. I know that I have been all giddy about this kid and I thank you for putting up with my long winded babble about this and that during a time when things are really changing for you. Settling down and looking at my daughter, I know that you find it difficult to move on and let things go or even to see it a different way, but you have really endured gracefully because you can still scream and laugh with me at the good things that are going on. Moving on is really hard and I am really proud of you and think about how amazing and strong you have to be to relocate and to push yourself into the next chapter of your life, even if you don't want to start another chapter. You are being so brave and headstrong about doing well for yourself and I am so excited for your future and proud of you as a friend.
Thanks for being you.
that really made me feel good. [kay likes to pretend parker is hers, so that is why she refers to parker as 'my daughter']
ive never had a very good memory, although people often tell me i remember the most remarkable things. as for my past, my memory is quite spotty. i do, however, have many sensory memories. smells, tastes, sounds etc that remind me of very specific memories in my life. for instance:
im sure i have many other memories but those are just a few that come to mind. anyone else want to share any memories like this that they have. please do.
•when i hear le tigre or avril lavigne, i remember driving in bryana sortinos vw gti with leigh, leslie, and bryana in savannah in 2002 and 2003. •jolie holland reminds me of late night puzzling with jessica dorman, cigarettes, red wine, and music on the ipod.